i just dont know what to do…… im the only asexual

I really like this guy. He’s cute, we both like some of the same things (memes, etc), and we have great conversations over text, but I find it terribly hard to talk to him in real life. I get awfully shy, and even when I text him, I feel that I’m bothering him and that he doesn’t truly want to talk to me or even be friends. As well, one of his closest friends makes me uneasy, and I feel uncomfortable trying to talk to him with that friend around, although his other friends are quite nice. I feel like I might end up driving them apart somehow, and I’d feel awful if I did. More than anything, I wish I didn’t feel like this.

I am scared when I am alone.

I’m in my second semester of collage and I’m glad I got through the first but it was really tough and stressful on me especially living so far from my boyfriend. I’m afraid that this distance is the reason why I’m not doing as well as I should be but I also don’t want to give him up and I’m not sure what to do.

Turning into my parents. They’re good people but they’re not the people I want to be.

That my gpa isn’t high because I am not happy and can’t focus 100% on my studies.

Sometimes I’ve told various lies to people that aren’t in my school and I am very frightened that somebody will find out…

that I’ll be anxious for ever

That it will never become easier to deal with all my mental problems

My boyfriend broke up with me a day before valentines day, now I’m home all alone and depressed while my parents go out and so do all my friends….

people will never talk to me outside of school. I message people but they never seem to get back to me.

That my depression will win…

I’m worried that the person who I like don’t like me back and it’s holding me back in school

I worry that I’ll never be able to overcome my anxiety and it’ll prevent me from doing amazing things in the future

I think my friends exclude me from all of their conversations

My friends will see my scars

I should start of my saying I am 16 year old girl with boyfriend troubles and I need help and guidness. Ok, so my boyfriend is transsexual, therefore, he wants to be a girl, but still likes girls. We’ve been dating almost a year now. Though, I found out a month ago he has been talking to this guy pretending to be a girl. I was incomfotbale about it, but I understood, and asked him to stop. But after a month I found oute was still doing it. Flirting and Turing this guy on. He sad also sent fake pictures of a girl to pass off as himself. I asked him; Q1: “why did you break your promise?” Ans.: “I forgot” This isn’t uncommon for him because he doesn’t have the best memory and I ud rest and that but if it comes to a point he’s moemeoey affect our relationship, I have every right to be mad, right? Q2: “Why did you cheat on me?” AMS.: “Cheating? I never considered it like that. I wasn’t being myself, it was a ‘Costume’.” This is considered cheating! Plus this is who he wants to be on the inside, a girl! So it is him! Q3: “Why a guy?” Ans.: “Thought it would hurt you less.” I asked this to see why a guy, though cheating is cheating, I just thought he liked girls. He keeps saying he does not like him, but I don’t know. And plus, he technically admitted he cheated! Q4: “Why did you make the conversation sexual?” Ans.: “So I can be a tease like you. I can never tease you because you have better control than me., so I decided to get pay back this way.” First off I should say, my boyfriend has issues with controlling he’s sexual desires, so he ends up trying to do stuff to me without ‘trying’. And I do tease him playfully, but the way he said it, it was cruel in my opinion. Ok before I say the finally Question I asked I should explain that he has “accidently” started dating this guy. Q5: “Why did you start dating him yesterday?” Ans.: “Because I felt bad for the guy, plus it was an accident. I said something with ‘your girl’ in it and he thought I agreed to go out with him.” Funny how he cares more about what the guy feels instead of me. He always does that, he cares more about he’s image and what he’s friend think than my own feelings sometimes. That just such a stupid excuse anyway. See my true problem is I love him too much to let him go, but I’m not into girls. Plus, my biggest fear is that one day, matter having a family, I’ll wake up with him gone. Him Running off with a man and leaving me. That’s if we actually last that long of course. But you see my point. I need help..

I worry that my life will never regain its once positive nature. After I was traumatized immensely I could no longer describe how I felt because I was so unsure. Now I know my feeling and it’s empty. I can’t feel anything because I’m empty. I worry that I will always feel empty and that my negativity will influence the people I care about.

I met a guy online I like but I can’t tell my parents :/

I’m afraid I’m not good enough, I’m afraid that I’ll never be good enough. My sadness is not for attention. I want help, but I’m too scared to ask for it. Some days I can’t make myself get out of bed. My sadness overwhelms me and I know that I’ll never be good enough. I won’t be pretty, or skinny or even worth loving. I’m scared one day I’ll fall victim to my own sadness and that I won’t be able to walk away from the pain I fell. If I fall again, I’m not sure I’ll get back up.