I am soooooooooo in love with him but he barely notices me

I’m just becoming a teenager and me and my so called friends are all changing too much is happening to me and I’m too stressed idk how to cope with it

My family wants me to see a physchiatrist because things annoy me. I’m a hormonal teenager things are going to annoy me. Like I’m only human. I know this is nothing compared to what other people are dealing with, I just wanted to share.

It’s been only a year or two that I somehow gained conciousness. Like I’m no longer a mindless zombie going through a routine. I have thoughts and feelings and worries, and a lot of them. I don’t know what to do with them all. It seems like it’s been so long since I’ve been happy for over a week straight that it seems like it’s all I know. I don’t like change at all, so I don’t know if I want it to stop. It’s almost like it’s all I’ve ever known, how do I just be happy?

I’m worried that I won’t finish my chem homework in time. I get really anxious when I’m not organized or punctual and I have no idea what I’m doing.

I am scared that my grandma will judge me for being bisexual

Worrying about worrying because I know it’s unhealthy for me to stress this much.

That I’m not good enough, and never will be.

What if I’m never good enough

That no guy will ever like me

I didn’t go to school yesterday because I ja a really bad anxiety attack and my mom didn’t know and I started cutting again and my life suck I don’t wanna be here anymore, Iam afraid she’ll see my scars

I’m insecure about not being pretty enough or skinny enough

I have no friends life sucks right now

My parents are always swearing on me… I honestly feel like I get bullied home more then i ever was at school or somewhere…. I enjoy leaving the house for school or something, just to get away from them… They don’t understand or care about me and I just don’t know what to do…. I forgive them way to easily, and idk if that’s a good or bad thing… Im just so confused, scared and sad…. This app helps me get my worrys out when I feel I have no one i can talk to about them.

I’m afraid that no one likes me

I miss the old me. Anxiety really sucks

I think I might be Demisexual, but I have no idea how to come out when the time comes…. My school is bad enough with gay jokes- how would I explain Demisexuality?

I’m worried that I’ll never find anyone… No friends… No boyfriend because every guy that I ever dated left me because my anxiety and p.t.s.d. Was to much…and im bisexual and I’m scared to tell anyone… Cuz I’m scared they will make fun of me 🙁

That people will treat me differently if they found out I had an eating disorder. My nan treats me differently and I hate it.

I worry constantly that I can’t live up to the expectations of my parents.