I’m worried that I will grow up to be a failure and never accomplish anything

I’m afraid that people will soon see me the way I see myself.

Not being able to feel normal because I’m bi sexual and I got a eating disorder am I broken?

That I’ll never be noticed but always looked through by people as if I don’t even exist, I’m just invisible.

I’m worried that I’ll start cutting again

Im afraid im gonna relapse

Everything is falling apart

I’m not good enough for my boyfriend

Everyday I worry about my sIze and being bigger than the other girls, It’s making my confidence ALOT worse everyday Why can’t I just be skinny ?

I’ve been self-harming for 3 years, and I’ve been clean for almost 4 months, and I’ve recently been craving to do it again… any advice on how to deal with the urges