I dint know what it is but I always have these thoughts that I have to do something really stupid (example: switch the lights on and off 11 times before I leave the room) and if I don’t do it then something bad will happen (example: a loved one will pass.) sometimes I try to avoid doing these tasks but it brings a lot of anxiety on me:(

I have social anxiety, I can’t go out with my family anymore and when I do I can break down at any moment. I’m worried that will happen.

I’m worried that I will never be good enough, nobody expects a whole lot of of me but I still disappoint them, I can’t seem to function like everyone else and I’m afraid that soon everyone will give up on me and I will give up on myself.

I liked a guy. He liked me. I lost feelings. I told him. He won’t stop texting me now, and he was in with a group of friends that helped further my depression, who I’ve ended things with. I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I want to be left alone from him. It makes me want to cry just thinking about him, and I want him to just screw off!

I use to always be talkitive and Energetic and wanting to go outside with friends but lately I haven’t been the same. I rather stay inside and be close to family. I went out with friends the other night though I felt like I didn’t get involved with conversations as much or the same as before and they noticed I didn’t talk the same they asked me what was wrong and I couldn’t answer cause I didn’t really know myself…

I don’t know if listening to music like Twenty One Pilots is helping me or hurting me. I love it, I connect with it so much, but it also sometimes makes me really sad. I don’t want to stop listening to their music though.

I’m worried that I am a waste of space

I’m worried that I’ll never be loved

That some day I’m just going to lose myself, lose control. And do something I’ll regret.

I worry that I’ll never be good enough for someone, if I’m told that now, will it always be like that?