My ex-boyfriend picking up smoking again

This world is getting more beautiful to me.. Everyone is gifted! I’m just worried I’m too far gone..I feel like I’m being born again! Tomorrow will be tough and that’s another worry : (

I can’t get out of my head everything feels like a mess inside and I have no way out

I feel like I’m not good enough for anyone.

I worry that all my friends are prettier than me

Whenever I’m around a lot of other people my age, and I hear them talking, it makes me feel like I’m 20 years older than I am, maybe because my views on things and those of others are so different….. Am I the only one who wishes that people would actually do things for themselves and not wait for people to do it for them? For people to actually do something with themselves? I always feel like I’m in my own bubble, completely separate from everyone else.

I don’t want to go to grad, I don’t have a date, no one wants to go with me

I don’t think I actually have any friends. My “friends” text my boyfriend but they don’t text me. It’s been over 6 months since any of them texted me. I don’t know what I did wrong. My boyfriend just laughs it off. Buy it actually really bothers me

People might realize that I’m not as sane as they think…. The eyeless people aren’t helping.

I’m worried my friends and family are gonna find out what goes through my head and never talk to me again.