I feel like everyone hates me

I’m sick of trying to be happy

I live in a small town where everybody knows everybody, and nothing is kept a secret and for a person with anxiety that’s one of the worse places to be. I walk around not know what to think and not knowing what others have to think about me. But I just keep walking around acting like everything is ok but really if someone was to enter my mind they would get lost in a gigantic maze of unnessisary thoughts that should never be thought of by someone my age. It has gotten so bad that some nights when I walk down the road all alone I here voices and walking behind me but when I turn around I see that nobody is there, it is just another part of the maze, so I take a deep breath and walk on and hope that, that will be the last of the maze but really its just a dead end and I’m struggling to find my way out

I’m afraid that no one will ever fall in love with me

I started flirting with a guy three years older then me who’s in foster care. We both developed feelings, but it stressed me out too much and I lost romantic feelings. His father left when he was younger, and I’m afraid he feels like I abandoned him too. I can’t deal with the guilt of it.

I have so many friends but I feel so alone

I’m afraid that I might never get out of this cycle. The cycle of feeling good/okay for two days and then really/moderately bad for three or four.

I’m afraid when my only friend isn’t at school and I don’t know where I’ll sit or how to act. My social anxiety goes through the roof whenever this happens

My grandmother passed away back a few months ago. She was practically another mother to me and I grew up with her. I don’t know how to deal with my emotions, or how to stop worrying so much about her. I always wonder ” Is she safe? Or ” Is she okay?” And “Is she out of her pain?” I don’t know how to deal with the situation. Everyday it gets worse and worse.

Burning my birthday cake

I’m worried that I won’t be good enough for anyone, especially him. I want to feel pretty.

My parents comparing me to friends

I’ll break down and won’t be able to get back on my feet

I messed up with the guy I like and now I think he hates me

I’m terrified I am going to be anxious like this for the rest of my life. I can’t deal with this for the rest of my life, havinf anxiety is so exhausting.

I’m afraid that I will never get better, no matter how hard I try.

Im worried that i may lose my job

I worry that one day, the guy who swore he would hurt me will actually find a way to do it.

I’m in love with someone who has a girlfriend. He gives me butterflies anyway.

That when I turn 19 and I don’t have acess to bridges or the janeway I’m just gonna relapse big time