I worry that my dark thoughts will eventually become a reality. I experienced a very traumatic childhood. I was sexually assaulted by a 33 year old when I was only 12 years old, he had done that 4 times in the one night. I live with a deep regret that I never done the right thing, I feel that I should have stopped it from happening the first time. I was scared and felt so alone. I never quite understood what was going on completely as I was 12 at the time. I endured such a long court process. It took 3 years for it to actually proceed. It was a hard thing to agree to, I had to get up in court and tell people I barely know my story, my secret. After I told my story it just became harder, the defends attorney made me feel like an idiot, she twisted my words and made me feel weak. I had the same VSC for 3 years and then she left, she couldn’t take on my case anymore. I feel like whenever I trust someone they walk away. My father was very upset when I told him what happened. He was mad that I didn’t tell him right away, he took it very hard as it was his best friend who done it. I needed him the most after it happened but he experienced depression leaving me to figure out my problems by myself. I never had a mother figure in my life and I was dependent on my dad. He wasn’t there. Nobody was. Nobody understands. He don’t know how it feels to constantly feel alone, empty, and worthless. I need someone. My dreams are getting bad, I have seen me kill myself in over 10 ways through my dreams. I feel like nobody hears me. Like I’m invisible. Like I can’t escape the dangers of my mind. I need to be heard.

Ok so my boyfriend has this thing where he likes to run off with his friends and leave me. I always feel left out and that he’s to good for me. What do I do?

That this mean girl who use to be my friend before she flipped out at me and my other friends but I’m scared she will turn everyone against me

I’m worried that I’ll never have a boyfriend like all of my friends, and I’m not good enough for anyone..

My therapist knows I have anxiety but I’m afraid to bring up that I may have boarderline personality disorder

I need to be a better person.

I am questioning my sexuality a lot. I used to think I’m asexual because about two months ago I didn’t feel actracted to people, then i started being atracted to EVERYONE.(Not every individual, every gender.) Now I’m thinking that I’m pansexual.

My family will completely fall apart… My sister got pregnant at 16 and got kicked out of my house, my other step sister completely stopped contacting us, my mom is depressed and my dad has anger issues..

I’ve been best friends with this guy for years and I fallen in love with him I’m afraid to lose him has a friend but more afraid to lose him to someone else but I’m more afraid he Dosent feel the same way about me and I worry about it everyday

I have a boyfriend and he has been goin over to this girls house with all his buddys …. But the thing is he used to like this girl and it makes me very worried to think of them together

I wish I could talk to some of the people on here

im ashamed of my scares and cuts. but i don’t wanna be! their a part of who i am and i can’t change it. but im afraid that people will think in just looking for attention if try not to be ashamed of them

I’m worried that if I don’t get a boyfriend soon I never will. I am in grade 11 and have never kissed a boy. All my friends have boyfriends but I don’t know any guys that would be interested in me.

Exams

The future

I’m afraid to sleep because I’m afraid I will stop breathing

I’ve been having urges to cut again. I’ve gone 4 months I don’t want to ruin my clean streak but it’s hard.

I seen a girl n I wan holla

That my numbness to human emotion will drive my boyfriend away

About the boats tying up.