I have no idea what I’m going to do after high school and it’s really stressing me out. There are so many directions to go it’s making Myhead spin

There’s this girl in class who’s my BFF and I have had a crush on her probably since grade 3-4 and she still don’t know but idk what her response or reaction would be if she realises that after all these years, she finally knows that I like her

I dint know what it is but I always have these thoughts that I have to do something really stupid (example: switch the lights on and off 11 times before I leave the room) and if I don’t do it then something bad will happen (example: a loved one will pass.) sometimes I try to avoid doing these tasks but it brings a lot of anxiety on me:(

I’m worried that my boyfriend will catch feelings for his female friends

The only thing to fear is fear itself

No one expects a lot from me but I wish they did because it just makes me feel worthless. I wish people would put more effort into being my friend but it feels like no one likes me as much as I like them

I’m terrified. I can feel my depression coming back. Each time is worse than the last and I’m terrified that this time I really will kill myself.

I don’t know how to cope, with anything. Everything seems to be moving too fast. Like my life is a movie on fast forward. I don’t like it. I thought I wanted to grow up and be independent and stuff but now I realize life is pretty hard. I don’t know if I can deal with all the changes and curve balls life throws my way. I’m only 15 but I can’t stop thinking about how much is changing.

I use to think I was pretty the way I was until my parents told me I was the dirtiest looking one in my class just because I don’t ware makeup and do my hair up nice. And now I always look in the mirror and ask my self why do I look this way, why am I ugly, why can’t I look like the pretty girls in my class. I always have those questions on my mind and they just won’t go away, I hope this doesn’t lead to depression or anxiety.

I’m scared of high school everyone looks at you while you walk down the halls and all your thinking is I don’t wanna be here.

By the time I graduate everyone I hold dear will have left me.

My mom keeps telling me I’m not gay

My friend betraying me and talking about me behind my back to their other friends

That my constant sadness will continue getting worse.

I have so much stress just from school and social expectations and I don’t know how to deal with it all

I have no friends, I spend weekends alone and the last time I left my house was months ago and I had to tell my mom I didn’t want to do anything for my birthday because The people I asked to spend my birthday with me made up excuses not to go

I’m loosing confidence and it hurts 🙁

I will be fatter then everyone else and be made fun of.

My dad yells at me for no reason at all and then makes up excuses for yelling… And if that isn’t bad enough he tells me I should treat him better… He just honestly makes me not wanna live… 🙁

I hate everything about myself. I was anorexic for four years and I self harmed for ten years (I’m 16). I’ve tried to kill myself upwards of 70 times. I’m pretty much fully recovered but I still have severe anxiety and depression. I’m so insecure I’m fearful of relapsing.