I’m doing a speech on mental Illness, in it I let out that I am Bi-polar. My mom is a teacher and is adamant about me not sharing anything. I don’t want her to lash out at me, I don’t like yelling.

Because my stupidity

I’m worried that my friends are plotting against me all the time. I don’t know who’s looking out for me honestly anymore.

I am questioning my sexuality a lot. I used to think I’m asexual because about two months ago I didn’t feel actracted to people, then i started being atracted to EVERYONE.(Not every individual, every gender.) Now I’m thinking that I’m pansexual.

I have tried to over dose every night for 11 days. why won’t the stupid pills work?!

I worry that everyone hates me even when they say they don’t.

I’m worried that everyone is gonna leave me

I missed that much school in over two months either skips off or just ain’t feeling like going because knowing how the people are there making fun over stuff that has happened and coming home everyday almost because anxiety attacks… Stuff is pretty scary for a lot of us

I worry that I’ll never stop getting picked on by ALOT of people or that I’ll never get a boyfriend ever again

I worry that I’m loosing respect from my parents and family and friends…

I worry about everything is gonna go wrong for me… I’m already going down the wrong path with life…only 14 and can’t stand this kinda life!:(

I worry way too much..

I worry about being alone when my bf is out of town!

im worried that my friend will tell on me what do i do

I’m scared of going to school an gettin bullied! I think I’m going to hurt my self and I’m scared

My parents fight, it causes me to be suicidal, I cut, I’m worried that when I have children this might be how I end up…

I worry about worrying..

I worry that because of the pain people have put me through in the past that I’ll end up being the cause of someone’s suicide. I had someone tell me that they’d kill themselves if I didn’t sent him an explicit video, when I said no, he sent me a video of him attempting to OD. So I had to. People say that if someone blames you for being suicidal then they are only playing a game, I want to believe that but, others have blamed their suicidal thoughts on me and I feel like a monster. I find myself being mean to people without thinking, without trying, I can’t control it. I’ve become a shell of the person I used to be. The guilt is tearing me apart. Today I checked the obituaries to see if an aquaintance killed himself because he miss understood something I had said. I feel like if I could cause pain on purpose then I’d be able to stop myself. But that’s stupid. Today my friend didn’t answer my texts, I thought it was because she was mad at me for saying things to my acquaintance, who is her best friend. So, I skipped out and went home early to cut myself. I’ve only started recently, someone told me it was great so I had to try it. I don’t regret it. I might regret the scars. I’ve started carving my insecurities into my thigh. Things like monster, lovely, evil, fat. … I don’t see myself stopping, even if I want to wear shorts again some day. Other then that I see no point in stopping.

I’m worried about losing the ability to cope again.

I’m worried that my best and only friend won’t give me a second chance